Me, my life and my ways of living.

Good day. Lot of %. Nice. However, I feel dumped. Again. After a small trip (on which my friend was reminding me about Her - he even said we were a nice couple,and everyone agreed with him) I tried to watch some photos with Her on my pc. And it stucked for a while... looooong while... And I started thinking about all of "those things" linked with Her...

But I'm not only thinking about girl(s). My birthday's coming tomorrow :) At last...

And I started to put best of music I have on CDs (in example some tracks from Hyperavers, Jeckyll & Hyde, Alchemist Project or Benny Benassi :)

What am I writing this for? No one reads things like this...

Life is changing. Isn't it? So why mine isn't?!... I got dumped second time. With same girl as before. I'm not gonna do this anymore...

4 days left to my 18th birthday :) I'm a bit scared... It's gonna be the first time I drink something strong with my parents at home xD Last time I did it with friends after school in a park in Tottenham xD Smirnoff... Good one... After I drunk around 0.7L I went home (about 7 miles away), and in front of my door I realised that I left my bag (I went drinking straight after college) in that park xD At 1am I was trying to get back to Tottenham just to pick up the bag from there xD every single friend was laughing at me (reason unknown as they say :D - I thought nobody knew about this errr... incident)...

XMas evening was good this year. My sister (11 yrs old) had drunk just under a quarter of the glass of whisky with coke, and she was drunk like me after drinking one litre of clean vodka... Funny night...

[something in Polish - English ppl plz dont try 2 translate it ;]

:* to dla Asi... Mimo iz mnie nie chce (po raz drugi) ja nadal mam Ja w moim sercu... nie mam pojeci dlaczego...

Uooch... another bad day... Even this that my ex-girl allowed me "to try to be back" doesn't make me happy... My friends girlfriend died yesterday evening... Damn... He said: "if you love someone, never ever let her go..."... Now I fell really really bad...

I feel dmpd. Now i feel it fully. It hurts. No girl is like she. N she doesn't want me back. KURWA!!!... Im trying to promiss to myself - NO MORE GIRLS. At all.

I know im not handsom (or whatever it is in English), but if she says that i am, so why leaves me without any good reason? WHY?!... Can't just stop thinking about her... The only way to stop is... im not gonna write it in here (police - they dont like this idea)

BYE! [who am I writing it to?]

Nice day. Bit windy, but it's nice I'm still thinking if I have to write it in polish or english [HELP ME PLEASE ;]

The girl that broke up with me still has got some description on GG (polish communicator like MSN ). Heeh... Some... Sort of 'i luv ya' or 'if u r in luv u need to work hard'. I'm thinking who are those for @:] sure it's not for me... She said she's not gonna try it with me again... Why?... Good question

23 days left to my 18th birthday... I'm happy, but also sad... Not because my mum wants to drink a lot more than me... I'm sad coz She's not gonna be there...

F**k

Alone again...

This is a baaaaad day...

First time I write anything about myself on-line

Do I want to write it?... Good question... Since one week I'm asking myself only good questions... Like 'why did she break up with me?' or 'will I get to the university?'(I know I'll have some problems with it - my english does not allow me to go there [iampolish])...

Ouch... Teacher is coming ;P I need to finish...

WHAT AM I WRITING THIS FOR?

:* I love You. Even if You left me...